Their meeting was a surprise, both did not anticipate that moment would ever come again, both shocked at each others appearance. Never in the world would she expect that Kevin's step sister would be Leila, although he had occasionally talked about her because apparently she is entitled to inheritance as she is to be considered as part of the family, he never mentioned that it was Leila. She was siting on the couch when she stepped into the house, and she immediately knew why Ray loved her so much, she's jumply and bubbly and cheerful, there was this distinct and unique smile that seemed to be only owned by her. At first Leila did not see her, she was too indulged into hugging her mum and step dad and talking to them. It was only when she saw who Kevin was about to introduced that shocked her. The change in her face was very apparent, pure shock, when she was introduced as her girlfriend.
However what was to follow up was even worst, Ray having just recovered from the surgery was just walking behind Leila, being tired from the plane ride and having been con to carry her bag and her souveniors, he totally did not expect to see him. He somehow looked different, slimmer and fairer, but he still had that charm. She totally did not what to do, she turned to Kevin who was equally stunned.
To both of them they have never ever anticipate this, at least not the moment when they get back, both did not know what to do, Leila being the more clear-headed one immediately suggested that she needs to go and wash up before the meal. Of course the mum obediently agreed but the next question that came striked all of them.
"Who is this guy?"
Leila did not know how to answer, whatever she was about to say or going to say is going to suffer heavy consequences, she was stuned. Ray knew that it was time to step up, his health has not recovered fully yet, and even if it was he knew that there would be no going back, although he secretly had hoped that Charmaine still liked him, but the fact that she is at Kev's house already showed something.
"I am her ......."
"OUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! CRAP......... Ray come on i need to use take off these shoes.... follow me"
And with that they dissapeared into the second floor, Ray sneaking a glance at both of them who just starred plainly at each other.
Through dinner his identity was not asked again as more guest arrived and both Leila and Kev was keen to avoid each other but Charmaine could not contain her emotions, she did not know whether it was anger or love, but she wanted to ask Ray what happened. Everytime she was about to approach him, he was either dragged away by Leila or Kev stopped her. The night ended when she was sent home, their journey home was filled with silence, never before have they both been so quiet. Thoughs just come rushing to her mind, thoughts that included both Ray and Kevin, happiness and pain. She though that Ray was a thing of a pass, Kev was the future but she felt out of control. Kev witnessed her actions, he knew that she was disturbed and although that night they spend the night together, both of them knew that something has changed.
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Days passed with nothing happening, they still talked on the phone routinely before and after work but somehow or rather they avoided seeing each other. Either she found and excuse or he was busy. She however needed to talk to Ray.
On the other hand Ray moved back to his home, Leila moved in with him but she stayed in the other room just like last time. He still need constant medication and rest. Although he looked normal he was technically still very weak. When the door bell ring he instinctively knew it was her, he did not know what to do. He could have pretended that he was not at home. But he knew that avoidance was not a cure.
Both of them were very awkward, when they settled down into the house, there was nothing to say, although she did try attempting to strike a conversation it did not seem successful. But he knew that the killer was coming soon.
Charmaine: 'Hows your married life? Leila is a good women, both of you look good...... when..."
Ray: i have something to tell you.... i still love you
'I still love you', 'I still love you', 'I still love you', those were the words that strike her head after and after again. She was just purely stun, for many times she had wished that he would say these words to her, for money dreams she hoped that Ray would come back and just by her side. But when he actually said it just now, the words somehow felt like arrows piercing right into her heart. She did not know how to respond.
She got up to leave, but he stoped her. She did not want to listen to his excuses, he seemed very unreal to her, suddenly he was actually scared of this man. Both of them were looking into each others eye, she was analysing him, she had hope to come to congratulate them, settled the pass and carry on with the future. But things are more messed up instead. He wanted to kiss her, and he did. She responded. For a second both of them lived in denial. The pass 6 months was nothing more then a bad dream.
Then she felt the ring that Kev gave her, the images of him in the hospital, the image of their trip around the world. The guilt that was beginning to bubble. She broke the kiss. All she could say was
'You shouldn't be doing this to your wife'
and she left.
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