Miss you finally

"KEVIN!!!! WHAT ARE YOU DOING!!!!! DID YOU REALISE THAT YOU JUST MADE THE COMPANY LOSE 10 MILLION DOLLARS!!!!!.................... WHAT WERE YOU THINKING WHEN YOU SIGNED THIS CONTRACT!!!!!!! IF YOU WEREN'T MY SON I WOULD HAVE FIRED YOU RIGHT NOW AT THIS MOMENT!!!!!!!! GET OUT NOW!!!!! I DON'T WANT TO SEE YOU"

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4 weeks, 28 days, 672 hours, 40320 minutes, 2419200 seconds, the time that has passed since she walked out of his life. The numbers that represents her absence. The emptiness that was now his life.

Of course he have not given up on her with all the updates that he was constantly receiving for the body guard that he "hired for her". He didn't know why he did that, maybe it was becuase he did not want to lose "sight" of her, or maybe it was becuase he was scared that if he ever did totally let go she will forget him. But the called he received last night totally devastated him.

"Kevin......"
"Cha..........................."
"Please let me go......... please ask your man to stop following me......."
"I.....i..... ju....."
"i know you intend no harm...... but like i said i want to be alone...... i need time to be alone..... i need to do this alone. I know you love me. But if you really love me then let me go. Please do not make me hate you."

With that all he could do was stare at her picture, she accepted that his silence meant consent.

"if we are ever meant to be together we would meet again one day, somewhere in this world, maybe it would be Hong Kong, or Australia or England, as long as we are both alive and if theres fate we would be together one day, and that would be the day that i would be yours. Till then i hope we can let fate decide for us. Take Care Kevin. Bye"

The phone went silent, she did not even allow him a chance to say goodbye.


FATE??? whats fate??? He never believed in it, since the death of his mum he knew that he would need to strive for what he needs. Nothing is up to fate, he is fate. But this time he really did not have an answer to her. What should he do?



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She was beginning to accept the fact that there was nobody there to rely upon anymore, she has to go through this herself, she no longer longed for the touch of Raymond, no longer yearn for his affection, no longer need him. She wants him but he is no longer her pinnicle for survival. Maybe it was just a illusion, a psycology button in her brain that has momentarily stopped working. But after 4 weeks of walking and seeing things she is really beginning to wake up.



Coming from a well to do family, she was always protected, even after she started working she was still the treasure of the family with a loving parents and a kind sister. That was probably also the reason why she fell so hard this time. She was always the player in previous relationships now shes the one that is being played. She could no longer differentiate whether she actually loved Ray that much or was it because she was angry. Whatever it is she has come to the conclusion that he was not as important to her as 4 weeks ago.



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"The operation is very successful, we have done a bypass and the clockaged has been reduced significantly, he should be awake very soon. But he should be careful as there is always a chance that his heart might stop working. He needs to take care of himself"



Seeing him laying there with all the incubators and all the masks marks the resemblances of Desmond. The way she was helpless in saving him, the way all she could do was cry, the way she could only see him suffocate and torture. These few weeks had been a roller coaster for her, with Raymon drifting in and out of conciousness and going in and out of the OT, she had returned to how it was 2 years ago. Each time he went in she was so scared that he would not come out. Each time he came out alive she was scared that he would not survive the next few days.



At the same time she seems to have developed something more of friendship for Ray, she realised that she was more worried then a normal friend would be. Was she getting it mixed up with Des? Is this a continuation of des? Second chance with the love of her life?



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Without noticing she is revisiting all the countries that Ray often flew, at least all the countries in which Ray bought her one of the small gifts, her freedom was total she could be in China one day and in France the next. She had no burden all she felt was the freedom she needed, the freedom to be excused from Torture.



And today she just reached New York, unlike the normal tourist, she never ever shops, she prefers to sight see, and of course in New York she would go to Niagara falls. She rented a car and began her journey, enjoying the cold autumish wind in the air. The scene was breath taking it was definately worth the drive. And since she was so near Canada why not drive there too?



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The incident occured too fast, way too fast for her to remember what exactly happened all she knew was that she was lucky to be brake intime and that the Mercedes Airbag did actually come into use. She got off more likely then anticipated and someone dragged her out of the rumble that exploded within seconds for the cars in the collision. She was send to the hospital to recover from shock. She had to stay overnight. Suddenly she felt very lonely. She was tempted to call Kevin. But she felt bad, she was always the one saving her and just a month ago she had told him to leave her alone. Thus she decided to force herself to sleep instead.



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"Wei, omg you are finally awake!!!!, Can you stop being such a pig?? Do you know that i get bored"

"Haha.......... ouch..... stop making me laugh .... it hurts.... well at least i survived another time"

"Don't worry the doctor said that you are ok right now, you are luckier then those who were in the car crash down the highway this morning, 8 dead 3 wounded, cars were burned down to rubbles"

"Well, i guess i live another day for you to nag haha..... now get me out of this i feel like going down to the field"



As fate would have if you are destined to be together you would meet whereever you are in the world, but if you are not destined to be together even if you are at the same place at the same time you would not meet, he felt her presence, he heard her voice but he though it was just his illusion, maybe he missed her too much. He was always dreaming about her when he drifted in and out with the anasthetic. As fate would have it they missed each other by inches, she was there, just as she entered into the lift he turned into the hallway.

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When she stepped out into the field she could not believe her eyes, she though that she was hallucinating, but Kevin was standing there, right in front of her. Smiling at her just like the normal old Kevin. She smiled back. Not believing that it was true. They did actually meet. She actually missed him, finally.