It was kinda awkward between the both of them, Kevin knew that what happened last night was purely the devil of the alcohol, thus no matter how desperately he wanted it to be true, it was nothing more then a dream. She obediently sat down and ate what he cooked, she had no appetite, but had nothing to say to him so she ate obediently and he was scared to start a conversation for the fear that she might crush the tiniest of his hopes, both of them sat through the morning's breakfast in silence.
Back at her office, she totally could not concentrate, in her heart Raymond was still alive, he was everywhere, when she tried to read a document, the pen holder next to the files would remind her of him. When she tried typing a letter their photograph would remind her of him. Even when everything related to him was put into the drawer he was still there, Ray was in the air that she was breathing in. There was no way she could get rid of him. Miriculously she picked up the phone and dialed Ray's number, only to find that it had been cut off. Suddenly she panicked, was this actually going to be true? Had he really left? She couldn't hold back any longer and decided to check it out herself, she had to go to his house.
When he saw her leaving the office in such a hurry, he got kinda worried, he began to wonder what she was up to, had Ray called back? He followed her. When he turned into the fimiliar street, he realise that she was going to find him, yesterday night was really indeed a dream after all. Part of him wanted Ray to be there so that Charmaine could be happy but the other part of him wanted Charmaine to be his. Worried about her he followed her into the building. She rang the door for ages, and nobody answered it, she began shouting, demanding to see him, until the security guard came and the words came thrashing upon her
"Mr & Mrs Lam had gone on their honeymoon on a cruise on the caribbean, Mr Lam left 2 days ago and Mrs Lam came back yesterday to pack all their belongings. She said that they ain't going to be back for quite some time"
HONEYMOON!!!!! Her tears were just uncontrollable, suddenly a figure loomed, dreamingly she though it was Ray and spoke out his name only to realise that it was Kevin
" This time he really had left me, for real, once and for all"
"The patient's operation was a success but we found out that the left side of his heart has started to swell up as well. Further surgery may be needed"
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The next few weeks of her life was a blur, she totally could not concentrate at work and had resorted to staying at home to rot, she did not want to talk to anybody or see anybody and did not go out at all, and apart from Kevin who frequented her house and taking care of her daily needs, she saw nobody else. She did not want him to visit, and had tried to force him out of her life but he kept coming back, thus she resorted to hiding in her own room when ever he came.
He knew that she was not eating properly, for everytime he came up with a new batch of grocerries he almost had to throw away everything he bought the time before, but he always noticed the empty beer and wine bottles piling up in the trash. One time he got so worried after seeing an empty bottle of pills and cans laying on the table that he immediately went to her room, when he found it shut he kicked the door hard to force it to open, he found her lying on her bed crying, thank god, at least she was alive, he didnt know why he did it but he too climbed up onto the bed and hugged her. She did not resist and in fact turned around to cry even louder.
She didn't know for how long they were there for, but the next thing she knew was that she was back at home on her own bed and Kevin was crouched on her dressing table sleeping. Her head felt really heavy, she must have gone mad drinking again, she really began to despise herself. Her alcohol consumption for the pass two months must have been more then her whole entire life. It was definately a time to call stop. Plus it was late in the middle of the night and she couldn't fall back asleep. It was time for her to wake up.
When he woke up to find her missing his heart missed a skip, he automatically ran out of her room only to find her glaring out of her balcony. She was crying again, and once again he felt sorry for her, he began to question whether she would ever feel happy ever again. Did Ray actually have such a big impact of her?
She heard him coming out.....
Charmaine: I am leaving this place
Kevin: ....a........
Charmaine: Its really time to wake up, i apologise for all these trouble that i have caused you, but its really time for me to wake up...................
Kevin: aa...re u alright?
Charmaine: Exactly one year ago at this time i bumped into him on a flight back to HK, he was the pilot and was out for a rest at the cabin crew area before the plane started to hit tubulence and he sat next to me and calmed me down. Fate had it that we would meet again and developed this relationship but it was probably's fate's idea of testing how strong i could be when it ended. I have failed the test and i would need time to recover from it but from now on i would be strong.
Kevin: Where are you going to go?
Charmaine: i dunno i was planning to tell you then pack and board the next plane that departs from HK, which could be Japan or Europe or even Africa, i will leave it up to gods will. I am sorry i can no longer help you in your business. You were a nice boss and a better friend, i hope that we will be friends forever
Kevin: Ok, i get it, when you coming back?
Charmaine: i dunno, maybe next week, maybe next month or maybe never, we will just leave that up to god's wishes.
Shes, leaving? OMG shes leaving, what am i going to go? Plane ride? wasn't that the one that i was on as well, the one that had so bad trubulence that everyone of us though that we were going to die? Can i go with her?
Kevin: Char.... can can i go..........
Chamaine: Kev its time for me to stand up alone, if i keep relying onto you i would never ever be able to stand up alone again...... please undertsand........
Kevin: Promise me that you would call me..............
Charmaine: i will try..............
He went over to her and hugged her
Kevin: I will wait for you...... so please come back, no matter what i will wait... i swear
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"The Opeartion is a success, but there was a complication, there was a time where his heart had stopped for more then a minute and the pace maker could not revive him, he might therefore be in a coma. Whether he wakes up or not is totally depended on himself"
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He sent her to the airport with only her back pack and she forbidded him to go in with her, she did not want anybody to know where shes going, she needed time to be alone and maybe this trip will her realise that theres more out there in the world then Raymond. He desperately wanted to follow her but the earlier conversation struck her
Charmaine: Kev... you are a good man.... i know you love me.... but i do not deserve your love for at this moment i can't love you back, even in the future i might not be able to do so, thats how hard Ray has actually hurt me, i have changed. So don't wait for me...... just let me go......... if you love me, then forget about me
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